Just had a look through my journal/diary/notebook, and saw a tendency of starting to write something at the beginning of every year, but lasting only a week or two, and then returning to it 6 months later.
Although I love writing, and do write long thoughtful messages to my friends, I still can't keep writing all the time, not because I don't have any thoughts or ideas to speak out, but just because I'm lazy or don't have anything to write on.
And of course the best writing, or better say expression of thoughts, come during the night hours (or in the shower :D).
Once again I find myself thinking about subjects that bother me for a long time lately, and thankfully this time I had my notebook around so I could write it down. The funny thing is that I don't like (and kinda scared of) re-reading what I wrote there. After sometime I still have an idea of what I wrote there and in my head it still sounds great (if I was some kind of French novelist). But I'm scared that I might read it, and find that it's just a childish rubbish :D But anyway, that's what my thoughts look like.
People say, in order to write good you have to have some experience, the weirder and more extreme - the better. But what about the state of soul, heart and mind in which some people are, who aren't experiencing all the joys and sorrows of the world? What about people who don't get to experience all that, or just scared, or not ready to? The emotional roller-coaster that one's going through by not getting those experiences is as much important as anything else.
I once heard from my teacher that memoirs are better to start writing (or write) when you're still in your twenties, or even earlier. Back then I thought that it's weird because memoirs are made of experiences and stories about them, that happen along person's life. But now I really think that a good pile of memoirs can be easily written by a 20-years old person. Of course none of us get to experience the world the same and we see it differently, especially at a young age.
So I'm kind of hoping and want this blog to become a kind of memoir of my current life.
This post doesn't really make sense, but whatever, just sharing my thoughts and in the next few posts will write more about things that bother me.
Let this be some kind of psychotherapy for me :P